I understand how people do stupid things when they are stressed.

I wish I had more time to read the things that I want to read. I want to read Pitchfork on a daily basis - even if I don't learn anything that will save the world.

I want to read fluffy novels.

I want to read magazine articles on my favorite bands.

I want to have time to create. I need to create.

Everything I write is a formulaic list or essay with no creativity. I've stopped trying to inject creativity into staunch academic papers.

One day, I'll feel like me again.