i've been swept away.

I haven't been writing lately, which is kind of tragic, life is so sublime these days. I feel like these are the days that will define who I am when I am elderly. I feel like, as trivial as it is, I need to record every minute of this divine existence.

Yet, when I go to write, I lose my word, I stumble over the indeterminate nature of these feelings I have.

All I can say is that I want to dance around the moon and back. I want to be with this girl I have been fortunate to have found, as completely incredible, and implausible as such an even may have appeared.

I feel so comfortable, safe and secure. I don't feel threatened, pressured insecure or crazy when I am around her. These feelings seep into the real world, the one I exist in when she is not around, and I feel confident that I am on the right track, finally in my life.

Logic suggests that I shouldn't feel this way, I should be conflicted and neurotic, closely guarding my scared heart. I know that I should feel insecure, and in past relationships, I've felt threatened, but I feel none of this now, and I push it out of my mind. The only worries we have are those of outside influence, parents are wary and unsure, wanting only the best for their girls. They don't know us yet, and in time, they will come to love us.

This girl is fabulous and miraculous, she inspires me like none other, supports me in my wildest endeavors. She uses words in ways none other has before, she drinks tea and tells me about fairies. We stay up to the wee hours of the morning sharing secrets and fears, histories and hopes for the future.

We are redefining the laws of relation, the usual romantic games don't apply to our world. We are re-writing the history books.

In other news, this evening I bought boots, which means, my mother will be happy. I must admit I was pretty pleased with myself. The sales lady called me honey, it was the first time I was not anxious while shopping.

The world is amazing and I am in love with the mysterious universal pull that ushered me enthusiastically into this new world.

Music: Arlene Bishop - 98 Points Water