There was a time when you let me know what's really going on below.

I did an amazing thing this evening. I called my dear friend Jessica Jackson. This girl is truly amazing. She has this ability to say exactly what I need to hear. I've been feeling less than awesome for a couple of weeks now, off and on, generally very manic. It sucks, it's driving me crazy. I'm terribly frustrated. I feel like there's something I need to say, like I need to talk about things for as long as I have to, so that everything makes sense, and everything feels good again, but I don't know what I need to say, or how to put the words together to begin to say it. It is frustrating.

She sang me a song, and told me that she loves me, and things are good. It's the most sensible thing I've done in a long time. We used to talk for hours and hours on the internet, and if either of us had any issues, they wouldn't be issues by the time we said goodbye, and I miss that, and I cried when I hung up this evening, because just as everyone has always said, it's all imaginary.