In which she comes to a conclusion.

"It's like when you are excited about a girl and you see a couple holding hands, and you feel so happy for them. And other times you see the same couple, and they make you so mad. And all you want is to feel happy for them because you know that if you do, then it means that you're happy too."

The Perks Of Being A Wallflower - Stephen Chbosky

I have decided, that for the next little while that I am just going to be happy for other people.