Crosses.

I have been in a very strange state of mind lately. I am always in a slightly off kilter state of mind, but this week it's been even more off. On sunday and Monday I felt that I was retuning to my 13 year old, depressed, alone and pot smoking, state. I tend to avoid expressing myself when I feel like such shit, so I've been absent for a while.

I have fallen in love with "Rent" the movie, arm socks, and the idea of University. I am going to send in my applications over the weekend. I have decided that life is much more enjoyable when I just accept things the way they are, and get on with things. I am going to do that all the time now, because I think that I am happer then.

So, this arm socks business. I hate being cold. I wear leg warmers for both the fucntion and the fashion. If anyone would like to send me some images of acceptable arm sock/ leg warmer fashion I would be simply over the moon. If someone wanted to hand over their old worn out knee socks, well I'd probably find a way to compensate you for your efforts.

I will take some new pictures soon. I will start leaving the house [other than to go to work.] I will send off christmas cheer, I will make friends. [If someone would like to counsel me on friend making/ friend keeping/ how to avoid picking the crazy ones, we'll, I'd be very happy.]

Due to Rene, and my habit of embellishing my already alternative lifestyle, my collegues believe that me and my friends are all sex trade workers and drug dealers. I'm not sure where they came up with that.

I've been listening to the following song on repeat for probably a total of 12 hours, so, all week. It is fabulous!

Jose Gonzalez - Crosses

"Don't you know that I'll be around to guide you
Through your weakest moments to leave them behind you
Returning nightmares only shadows
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now
Crosses all over, heavy on your shoulders
The sirens inside you waiting to step forward
Disturbing silence darkens you sight
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright for now
Crosses all over the boulevard
The streets outside your window overflooded
People staring, they know you've been broken
Repeatedly reminded by the looks on their faces
Ignore them tonight and you'll be alright
We'll cast some light and you'll be alright."