Scissor Sisters - Take Your Mamma Out

The following I wrote in my PD journal:

Lately, I've been extremely reflective, which I suppose does not explain the silence of late. After the semester changed I needed to slow down, I had previously been so busy that I kind of got out of touch with everything. I dove right back into my part time job at the art store, weither or not I like it is still up for debate. I don't see it lasting very long, but temporarily I think I like it. I'm realizing that I know nothing when it comes to supplies, which is kind of depressing. I'm also not as interested, or entralled with the art world as I once was, and I kind of wonder when that changed.

While the drama surrounding my job continues I've learned that I love teaching and I love doing my own thing. Going off and doing something and coming away from it being proud or impressed.

I recieved my diploma exam results on family day. My marks were about as good at the could have ever been. I worked so hard for so long for those marks, and to have them reflect my word was incredibly satisfying. So I've come to the conclusion that while I'm taking my year off I need to upgrade my courses in order to go to University. I am at the point right now, where I believe that if I do anything less than I am capapble of, because I am lazy, or I simply can't be bothered would end up completely devastating to me. I know what I am capable of, I know that I can be whatever I decide, I can take care of myself. Knowing this is the most powerful and liberating notion I have thus far experienced.

This entry is becoming far more introspective than I intended.

To summ up, I am going to do everything with my entire being and energy and emotion behind me and I am going to strive to improve and the surprise myself and be totally connected with every action, choice and feeling I express.