Today has been draining. Oh man. I feel like shit. My entire family has been playing hot/cold with me all weekend. Today it reduced me to a good half an hour of violent sobbing. I suppose I should clarify, by hot/cold, I mean loud and intense/quiet and being passive agressive.

I made a post around two saying that if anyone needed me i'd be at grandma's house indefinately. I packed and everything. Then my father, in a moment of softness brought me his left over indian food from the night before. And because I have loads of homework requiring computer access, I stayed here.

This afternoon I walked to the grocery store and bought my own groceries, because the only thing I ate this weekend was a bowl of popcorn, a bowl of frosted cheerios, three oranges, and the indian food I had for lunch.

I've been listening to a lot of Ani lately. I got So Much Shouting/So much Laughter out of the library, and I'm obsessing over it again. The thing about Ani is that once you're tired of repetitively playing one of her CD's there's at least 20 others you could listen too.

Penelope by Pinback is an awesome hand clapping happy tragic song.

I guess I should go find some dinner now.

I really can't wait until tomorrow when I can go to school. Who would have thought I'd actually get up at 6:30 every morning just so I could be at school by 8. The english hallway is my favorite place to be these days. It's quiet and warm, and just feels like a good place. I know you probably don't understand. That's okay. I think I might not be online for a while. Or at least, i don't think I'll be on MSN.