He told me to look at my hand, for a part of it came from a star that
exploded too long ago to imagine. This part of me was formed from a tongue of fire that screamed through the heaves until there was out sun. And this part of me - this tuny part of me - was on the sun when it itself exploded and whirled in a great strom until the planets came to be.

And this small part of me was then a whisper of the earth. When there was life, perhaps this part of me got lost in a fern that was crushed and covered until it was coal. And then it was a diamond millions of years later - it must have been a diamond as beautiful as the star from which it had first come.

Or perhapse this part of me became lost in a terrible beast,
or become part of a huge bird that flew above the primeval swamps.

And he said that this thing was so small - this part of me was so
small it couldn't be seen - but it was there from the beginning of the
world.

And he called this bit of me an atom. And when he wrote the word,
I fell in love with it.
Atom.
Atom.
What a beautiful word.

~Tillie ~ The Effects of Gamma Rays on Man-in-the-Moon Marigolds ~ Paul Zindel

Today was mixed. For the most part it was pretty darn good though.

I almost don't want the holidays to come because I am feeling much more comfortable at school, the G.S.A. is developing at an amazing rate(we already have hardcore cool fundraising ideas!) and things are going well. My marks are strangely improving. I'm getting 85% in Physics(as the third unit in Science 30) and I nearly have an 80% in Social. I've completely lost hold of logical mathmatical thinking however, so I suppose that mark is not so good, but there is plenty of opportunity still to make up lost brain matter.

Today I picked up a copy of The Effects of Gamma Rays on Man in the Moon Marigolds. Remember how much I liked it a couple of years ago. Well it's still my favorite play ever. Over the holidays I'm going to make little cartoons out of it. I'm excited. I also got a copy of the script The Soldier Dreams from Mr. Jobb. (Part of the fundraising ideas.) As well, I have stacks and stacks, okay six other books that I'm hoping to get read before I return to school. Emily K. said she'd loan me a book, however I can't remember what it was, and I probably won't get around to reading it until after finals. I'm very very excited (not about finals). I don't plan on leaving the couch on Saturday.

I'm missing English a lot. Not reading is painful. Not thinking about the stuff I do read, or rather not having the time too, drives me batty. I need to do something about my class next year though, because from all accounts my teacher is not quite as demanding as I would like.

The only bad thing about today was the horrific stomach ache I had all day. I slept from four until seven thirty this evening before finally swallowing all the meds. Yuck. I also didn't eat anything today, aside from the oatmeal at breakfast. It just wasn't an eating day.