It's become overwhelmingly clear that I need to run away. I spent an hour trying to keep from bawling, and now that everyone's gone to bed I'm just crying.

I am too internal. I am too alone.
I am too busy. I am too self-sufficent.
I am too hard. I am too breakable.
I am too drowned. I am too robotic.
I am too quiet. I am too inside myself.
I am too shy. I am too tired.
I am too accepting. I am too aware.
I am too habitual. I am too selfish.
I am too shakey. I am too distracted.
I am sighing shuddering sobs.

I think I am having my emotional breakdown of the month.