I feel like I am imploding. It's like everything is far too much and there is far too much to do and I don't know what to do first and this seems to be a recurring problem for me. I'll start something and think of a better way to do something else and I won't want to forget it. Or it's just not physically possible for me to do something. I am also highly emotionally charged this week. I haven't pinpointed the cause, however I'm sure it won't go away for a while. I started crying tonight because my brother said he needed the computer while I needed the computer. Sheesh. I am having fun though. Really I am. I think I'm socializing. It's really really difficult though. I find it so hard to initiate conversation. To the point that I'll think about it for weeks before I say anything.

oh man.