I have given up on all of my projects. My mother yelled at me for fifteen minutes this morning and then proceded to talk me out of all of them, except for painting the house. I have not yet taken my learners test because mom talked me out of that too. Fact is, she doesn't want to do anything, and because she has a habit of taking all of my projects on as well, she doesn't want me to do anything either.

My father, being much like he usually is, has decided to cancel his birthday party and go off biking in the mountains. I would love to go biking with them like we used to but I'm not invited anymore. The climb mountains on their bikes and cross streams and erik doesn't remember when he was still too scared to cross the streams so him and mom would head back to the car and dad and I would cross the streams and climb the trails. I think I'm the only one who remembers that.

So my father isn't home anymore, between work and biking, so I'm not getting any help with the screenpriting. However, if I'm not allowed to get a new job, I guess I'll just do the screen printing stuff. However, I can't do that by myself either, and I actually need money for it, and everything seems to be conflicting. It's so difficult to do anything I kind of want to just sit here doing nothing, and then go to work and then come home, and do nothing again.

My aunt is driving my mother to new heights of nervousness, and irratibility. She invited herself over the other night for a sleepover and asked if we could make crepes for breakfast. Then mom made the crepes and she ate them and then she asked if we could go to the mall, which was not in fact where she wanted to go, but we went anyway, and then she asked if we could go to Army & Navy where she originally wanted to go to and mom said no because I had to go to work. Then she wimpered like it was the worst thing in the world.

Why is everything so difficult?