I've been devouring books lately. One every two days or so for roughly the past six days. The first was What Happened to Lani Garver by Carol Plum-Ucci. It was fantastic. It's all about this girl living in a small ocean town and then Lani Garver moves into town and no one can tell if he's a boy or a girl and he gets hassled a lot about it. It's all about angels and rock and roll and leather and the ocean.

The second was Saving Francesca by Melina Marchetta. It's by the same author as Looking for Alibrandi which was also amazing. This one is about a girl in the 11th year of a formerly all boys school. It's really snappy and Francesca is very intelligent, even if she's a bit silly at times.

The third was Girl Walking Backwards by Bett Williams. I've been searching all over this silly city, and the internet for it for about a year, possibly more. The all of the characters are extremely diverse and interesting. They seem real. I got the eerie feeling that if my parent's were divorced I could easily be living her life. This one was definitely worth the wait, though I wish I was the type to savor books. Seventeen dollars is a lot of money for two days worth of entertainment.
It just finished it this evening. I came home and read all evening. I started it last night. I amaze myself at how fast I read this stuff.

In other news. I've gotten over my anxiety over Alternative. I realized while talking to my lovely cousin that if I don't do this than I'm going to end up regretting it and wanting to go back and take back my last year and re-do everything. I've decided that I'm going to compile a few of my best blog entries from this blog and my previous one. I need help with this though. If you can remember any posts that jumped out at you and you think define who I am, please tell me which ones they are. Thank you.

I'm also going to put in a copy of my zine. That just dawned on me too. There are so many piles of paper in my room it's a mess. I'm thinking I might be like Emily (of the former girlfriend variety) and just not clean my room anymore. We'll see.

Meanwhile, Drama stuff is coming along nicely. Mr. Jobb is really putting me to work and I love that. I'm such a techie geek it's wonderful. This is why I think I should somehow end up in advertising. I'm really excited about seeing the play. It's going to be AMAZING. One of the actors is in my science class. I can't stand him, he's a football player too, which he says all the time, as if that justifies anything. I'm sure he's a good guy but he really gets under my skin. I amaze myself sometimes, I'm so snappy around him.

I'm also trying to orgainze a group to do the DAY OF SILENCE at school on the 21st. I'm definitely going to do it. It's a protest where students in high school and University take a vow of silence for the school day in order to signify the way many queer youth are silenced while in school. I need to do this. I don't yet understand why.

I've been trying to sign up officially, or join a group in the country that is officially signed up, but since it's a thing done primarily in the United States and Australia it's proving very difficult. In any case, I'm putting together my own little homage to the event. If anyone would like to participate (and you attend my school) I will have unofficial gear ready by Tuesday the 20th. The Day of Silence is on the 21st.

I also have good news. I finally discovered some inspiration for this sorry excuse for a blog template. I thought of it while I was having blood drawn today. There is no connection between the idea and the action, but it was both a dramatic visit to the clinic and an inspirational one.

I hope someone figures out what's wrong with me so I can stop fighting my body and just focus on the rest of the list. I'm going to make an official list soon, as well as a birthday list. I've been dropping hints to my family for a while now.

I seem to have so much to say today. I talked to my cousin who is fabulous. I was feeling extremely crappy because of the weather and the blood and the general sense of grossness lately and she called me up just after I talked to my little Brandy who was so lonely cause her big sister is off at camp. Emily succeeded in calming me down a bit, getting me to open up just a bit, and make me laugh. Why is my family so goddamn far away from me? My other cousin who I love so much it hurts all the time is somewhere in Arkansas in a canoe and I miss her so much.

In the next few days I want to put together a "safe sex" information sheet for my former CALM teacher, who also happens to be the leader of the CALM department at school. For a educator she is severely misinformed and her ignorance annoys me. I forgive her because she is old and has a lot of problems herself and I think she is simply tired. Things need to change though, and so, I will try. I've got this really great book signed out of the library (under a false alias [my father's] of course) and I feel so much more confident about being safe now. I think, things need to be done and they need to be done yesterday and THE PUBLIC MUST BE INFORMED. It's no wonder AIDS is running rampant, at the slightest mention of gloves or plastic wrap, condoms or dental dams the teachers flip out over technicalities and lawsuits and the fact that they can't teach sexual positions. I think it's outrageous, but I can't do much, but I'm going to try to do what I can, because I wish someone had informed me, and I didn't have to go out into the streets to educate myself. I mean, isn't this what everyone's trying to avoid, us innocent children learning about sex on the streets?



Sorry about that.

Brenna disappeared today. Actually she never made an appearance at all. Though I wasn't around much, she may have and I just missed it. Anyway, in the hallway this morning Erin poked me and asked if Brenna was dead and a bolt of fear went through me and I haven't been able to shake it off. Maybe I can sleep it off, and when I go to school tomorrow she will be there and she will laugh at me for my insanity and learned irrational behavior.

Wow. If this were a LJ it would certainly deserve a lj cut tag. But it's not, and I don't know how to do cut tags, so Tah DAH! This was insanely long and pointless but I needed someone to listen to me I think. Things just keep pouring out of me and I've never been the type to do my math homework.