Sometimes I surprise myself. I do something, or say something, or even just walking down the street I realise that I have it all figured out. I know how I want to feel. I know this with such certainty that I will never doubt myself. The details don't exist, I don't know how I will get there, I don't know what everything will look like, and I don't know what I'll be doing, who I'll be with, but I do know how I will feel. That's all I am looking for.

It makes me feel a little better about growing up, that I know no matter what I'll be ok. Knowing how to change a flat, put the chain back on my bicycle, how to fix the hole in my jeans, and how to cook rice. I know that no matter what that's all I really need.

It's comforting to know that I have it all figured out, yet at the same time, I don't really know any of it at all.